My Week 190: What New Hell Is This? Also, Happy Mother’s Day!

For a little while now, I’ve been experiencing things that put me in mind of hell. I feel like Dante, making my way through a landscape that just gets more and more bizarre. And every time I think I truly know what my own personal hell would be like, something happens that’s even worse. Oh don’t worry—none of it is truly tragic. I recognize that people go through things that are absolutely nightmarish, but in keeping with the spirit of this site, my version of hell is more like a Monty Python sketch, but one where Terry Gilliam plays all the roles and John Cleese is nowhere to be seen. And unlike Dante, I don’t have the 9 circles of hell—I have the Five Dickish Rings.

Dickish Ring One:

It all started a few weeks ago, when I was working offsite. Every day, I would either have to drive from downtown Toronto and back, or from my actual house and back. One particular morning, I was driving in the dark, in the rain, surrounded by transport trucks kicking up spray, and the only radio station I could get was the one that does news and traffic incessantly, which was probably the WORST thing about the whole experience, and I thought, “This is my personal vision of hell—driving on this damned highway forever with a guy who is PRETENDING to be in a f*cking helicopter but who is actually just a winged demon, and who is telling me that traffic is jammed from Townline Road to Mississauga due to volume.”

Dickish Ring Two:

After the nightmare that was working for 16 days straight without a day off, I finished work and came home. Ken had bought us all tickets for ‘Mardi Gras Night’ at the community centre. I had this weird idea that the local Lion’s Club was going to transform the community centre into a dimly lit enclave where we would go incognito in our fancy masks, and gamble the night away to the strains of jazz music and incense. I actually know nothing about Mardi Gras, if you haven’t guessed from the previous description, but if Mardi Gras means fluorescent lights, people dressed in jeans and ball caps, and a guy yelling out numbers to the elimination draw every five minutes through a loudspeaker, then Fat Tuesday it is. Well, there WERE beads. One string of dollar store beads per table. We got there early and snagged them so that I, my mom, T, and his girlfriend (the lovely V) each had one. All I could think was “This is my own personal version of hell—wearing plastic beads, sitting in an incredibly noisy small town community centre surrounded by drunk people and losing money to a man who looks like he wants to staple your elimination draw ticket to your face.”

Dickish Ring Three:

I walked to the local grocery store last week with a colleague who wanted to buy salad for lunch. There were many delicious options—spinach with chicken, dried cranberries, candied pecans, apples, and balsamic vinegar was my particular favourite if I was going to actually eat salad. What did she pick? Spring mix with hardboiled eggs and chunks of avocado in a blue cheese dressing. I honestly said to her out loud, “This is my own personal version of hell—being force-fed that sh*t three times a day.”

Dickish Ring Four:

I came home on Thursday night. Ken was away at a conference, so I was naturally a little nervous at being home alone, but at least I had Titus and Raven. On Thursday night, Titus pretty much ignored me because he was pissed off at Ken for not being there to walk him. On Friday night, it was another story:

Titus: Hey, whatcha doing?
Me: What do you mean, ‘what am I doing’? I’m sleeping!
Titus: I need you to open the door. I’d do it myself but I don’t have opposable thumbs.
Me: What? I let you out three times before bed. It’s 3 o’clock in the morning!
Titus: The heart wants what the heart wants.
Me: Fine! Make it quick. (long pause) Where the hell are you?!
Titus: I was just taking in the night—
Me: MORNING
Titus: —air.
Me: OK, fine. I’m going back to bed.

An hour later…

Titus: Hey, whatcha doing? By the way, my tummy’s a little upset…

This went on for several hours. All I could think was “This is my own personal version of hell—being woken up at night every hour by a dog who may or may not have diarrhea, so you HAVE to get up and let him out just in case. If you do, he will disappear into the night, giving you no choice but to wander around in the cold night air in your bathrobe and slippers to find him. If you don’t let him out, he will have pooped all over your favourite Persian rug. It’s literally the devil’s version of Schrodinger’s Dog.”

The devil incarnate.

Dickish Ring Five:

On Saturday, I had a book signing, which is to say that I was invited to come to a local mall by a book store and promote my novel. I was a little nervous, but I thought, ‘People do this all the time. I’m sure they have it all organized.” When I got there, right before 1 pm, there was nothing set up at the store. I saw the owner, and he said, “Oh right. There’s the table out there, and here are a couple of book stands. See you later.” The table was in the middle of the mall, right between the Fido Mobile Booth and a lady who was raising money for Cystic Fibrosis. I sat there for two hours while people walked by me and stared at me. Thankfully, my parents, my aunts, and a friend came by to say hi. My parents and my aunts pretended like they didn’t know me, and took a picture of us all so at least the five teenage boys who work in the Fido booth wouldn’t think I was a total loser, but after my family left, I still had another hour to go. At 2:30, I thought, “This is my own personal version of hell—sitting at a table by myself in the middle of a busy, incredibly noisy mall, while strangers walk by and stare at me.” At 2:56, I thought, “You can do this. You only have four minutes left”, at which point I realized that I was making a low, keening noise under my breath and slightly rocking back and forth in my chair. Finally, at 3 pm, I put my books back into my bag and went into the store. “Oh, don’t you want to stay for a while longer?” he asked.

“No, I’m good,” I said, which was a total lie. What I really wanted to say was “Go to hell”.

But later that day, I was at the grocery store, and I bumped into a really nice young guy that I used to work with. We exchanged pleasantries and then he said, “There’s a newspaper article about you pinned up on the bulletin board in our staff room. You’re a famous author now, right?” And while Sartre might have claimed that hell is other people, they’re also heaven sometimes too.

Happy Mother’s Day. Whether you’re a mom, an auntie, a second mom to someone, a special person who cares about your friend’s kids or whatever, here’s to all the wonderful women who make strong connections with children and give them great lives.

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23 thoughts on “My Week 190: What New Hell Is This? Also, Happy Mother’s Day!

  1. First…oh cool you are Toronto…my fave band if you haven’t been following.

    2nd…I come from and lived in the land of Mardis Gras unit nature kicked us out. You are so right that what you saw was NOT it. Definitely a Dickish Ring of Hell.

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  2. The last scenario would be pretty much Hell for me, too. I don’t know how long I’d last.

    It’s cool that you were invited to do that, though.

    It’s just not something I could manage to do.

    Speaking of your book, aren’t you supposed to put links and promotions up all over your site here? It’s what every other blogger who releases a book does.

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    • Yeah, I barely got through it. I didn’t cry though, to my credit. As for links, I like to keep the two worlds a little separate—my novels are pretty different from my blog writing, and I don’t want to mislead anyone😁

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  3. I can’t imagine Titus ever being Hell. No matter how many times he woke me out of a deep sleep I’d take one look at that face and laugh.
    The book signing experience, though, does sound like Hell, although would it be worse if you had to sign your name so many times you got a hand cramp? It seems like the potential for Hell is everywhere.

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  4. Happy mother’s day – especially to you as a dog mother, apparently, since the poor guy was putting you through the ringer. Dogs can be real babies sometimes.

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    • Yeah, he’s my big baby. The trouble is that he hasn’t been feeling well of and on lately. We’ve had him to the vet for tests, but they can’t figure out why. I think it might be time for some more tests:-(

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  5. Not for nothing, but your second dickish ring sounds a lot like my every Sunday morning. Except instead of beads we wear flip flops, instead of a community centre it’s a bar, and instead of losing money to a ticket guy I’m giving money to a mixologist. But the “noisy room” part and “surrounded by drunk people” bit are spot on. 😉

    And, now a personal interview question:

    How in the world do you decide your weekly blog? I adore your entries (and, of course, your humor) and often find myself wondering if Suzanne comes up with all her stuff on the fly (as I generally do) or if she takes notes and produces drafts during the week until, finally, on Sunday, she releases her masterpiece.

    Really, I often wonder that (when I’m not in a noisy, drunken room in flip flops).

    I’ll take my answer off the air… hope you had an amazing MD!

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    • Ooh, I like the sound of your Sunday! It would be a great way to celebrate the end of a successful morning of writing! As for your question, I generally do a lot of thinking and writing in my head during the week, take a few notes on my phone, usually just random words here and there, then I go to bed on Saturday night, wake up in a panic around 3 am, look at my phone, go “Oh yeah, I got this” and then go back to sleep. So pretty much ‘on the fly’, and with a lot of thinking rather than drafting. It’s the same way I write novels–before I can write a chapter, I have to have thought about it for at least a week, kind of visualizing it and writing it in my head first. Ken and I regularly have this conversation where he says “What are you doing?” and I say “Thinking” and he says “Awesome” (because he’s my biggest fan and he really likes my new novel).

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      • That’s perfect. I always think that I should be more “organized” in my approach to writing, or at least have a plan on what I’m doing next, but no. I sit, I say “what I want to write about?” and I write. At least you have an IDEA what’s coming next! 😂

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  6. Good use of Dickish Rings…oh wait, that sounds naughty. I have played with this idea myself. My hells involve wearing a bathing suit on a beach which is filled with ex-lovers (who haven’t aged a bit in 30 years) and their current GFs who are always 20 years younger and 30 pounds thinner than me, this is followed by a trip to the dentist with multiple extractions and at least one root canal (never had one but the name is awful), a trip to the gyno for my annual exam except my nether regions are pointed toward the door which is repeatedly opened to a waiting room filled with those fuckers from the beach, sprinkle in a family dinner with everyone who hates each other discussing opposing political views and follow that up with food poisoning….tAh-dAH. And girl you have a book you did it – I hope to get to the point where I’m sweary with book store managers even if only in my head.

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