This is a piece I wrote a few months ago. It’s deeply personal, but I’d like to share it with all of you. For a little context, if you’ve followed me for a long time, you’ll have noticed that the name of my child has been changed in all my posts to Kate, my wonderful daughter, who told me she was fine with me sharing it:
Keeping Faith
I stopped believing in a higher power
A few years ago
But sometimes I wonder if I’m wrong
Driving down a dark road
There’s something coming with flashing lights
I pull over for ten seconds but
It’s only a tow truck and
I’m mad
In a hurry
Then I wonder if there was a reason
Like a deer up ahead that I just missed by those ten seconds
And I think about the deal I made with somebody’s god,
A long time ago
That if I could finally have a baby
I would love it forever no matter what
And when my beautiful boy came to me
Crying, saying
I’m in the wrong body
I’m really a girl
I didn’t think about the deal
Or anybody’s god
I just answered I will love you forever
No matter what
Then up ahead I see a doe and her fawn crossing the road
About ten seconds away
Enough time to slow down and remember
It takes two to make a bargain.
no matter what
Oh how I love this. Thank you for sharing. This is so beautiful and touching at the same time.
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Absolutely no matter what. Thanks:-)
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Thank you for sharing. I’m so glad to see you so open and accepting of your daughter. She’s in good hands. I can see that.
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I really appreciate that:-)
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Wow. Taking the risk of airing the very personal: to me, that’s great writing in a nutshell. I’m so glad you started posting your poetry here.
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Thanks. I wouldn’t have done it without her permission but I thought it was time. A few people had asked me about it privately but I think it’s important that everyone who knows me knows how much I love and support her❤️
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Great writing like this does take a lot of guts.
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This made me cry. So so so beautiful❤️ Thank you for sharing this raw emotional piece with the world. And thank your daughter too. ❤️
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Aw, thank YOU, my friend ❤️
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Beautiful! Made my day.
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Thank you😊
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Oh, how beautiful this is. I Love it so much! Thank you for writing this and for sharing it. I love and adore you!
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Thank you so much, my beautiful friend. It may not be technically perfect but it’s from the heart❤️
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Amen! No Matter What! 🙂
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I wish every young person in transition had a loving family to support them! Thank you for sharing.
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It’s the most important thing for them! I meant what I said—it took us a while to finally have the baby of our dreams and she is😊
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I love this and she’s lucky to have you too.
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I’ve always felt blessed to have her too!
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Simply beautiful… 😀
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Thanks:-)
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Anytime 🙂
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😊
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This is great… really resonated 🙂
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Thank you😊
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😀😀
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This is awesome! When my son came out as gay he was worried to death how I was going to take it. I told him you love who you love and I loved him no matter who he loved.
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Yes, it’s so hard for them and so important that we respond with unconditional love😊
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I’m in tears. Love to you and Miss Kate!!!
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Thank you!❤️
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This is everything. Everything. When they give you that baby the first time, you count toes and fingers, and feel relief when they’re present in the quantity you expect, and you think, I’ve got this. But you don’t. You never do, ever, but you know you’d go to the moon and back for that baby. No matter what. No matter when. You’ve stunned with your words, Suzanne, and I’m so glad you’re in my life. I know Kate must feel similarly. Just love.
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Love has got to be the most important thing; otherwise, what’s the point? Thanks for being such a good friend:-)
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Life is all about love and acceptance and believing in a higher power. 🙏❤️😊
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I’ve read this so many times now and it’s so beautiful and so profound and so honest, and so true.
It made me think about a transgender friend who was rejected by his family, and I thought about how it doesn’t have to be that way.
Sometimes the higher power is you.
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Absolutely! I don’t understand how anyone who claims to love their child could abandon them to the world like that. Thank you so much for the kind feedback:-)
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Love, love, love!!
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Thank you😊
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My pleasure!
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Beautiful words. You made my Monday.
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Thank you 😊
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I think that kind of love is very compelling evidence for a Higher Power. Keep the faith.
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Thank you, my friend!
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Exactly. Love them forever. I have a non- binary adultlet now, and love IS what it is all about, the inner nit the outer, the gift not the wrapping.
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The gift not the wrapping—I love that!
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I totally missed this post! This reflection is lovely:) Cheers!!!
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Thank you!
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